From Day 1...Basics.

Everyone goes throughout so much in the life especially the little things that can impact them big. I am here to tell you something about my life that I never thought it actually happens. Before I do that, I want to tell you about myself. Before Day 1, I was extremely reserved, shy, had this low self confidence, DeafBlind woman that constantly fights for her life every day. Every single day is a battle in her mind and in her body within a little girl inside me. Everyone doesn't know my side story, I am here to tell you about my side story of life. 

Before Day 1...I was incredibly reserved due to lack of trust, lack of feeling confident, and I have a lot of secrets that I only share with my best friends which are limited to three people that I know and love in my whole life. I am grateful for them to be there for me and they have seen me going throughout so much. Not so little, not so big. The entire me that's dramatically changed all of suddenly. I was at the point where I basically gave up, which is that? I wonder....can you guess? Let me give you a hint...everyone have something that they are constantly fighting and struggling with every single day of their whole life. Sure, it can be mental, it can be emotions, it can be physical, it can be mind, it can be self-esteem....but what about your goals, desire, your passion, that you want to finish chasing your dreams? I had one---and I never told anyone this partially secret that I made to my father, who may he rest in the peace. 

Yes, I was having trouble with my life, my strengths, my weakness, my trust, my confidence, but there's one thing that I never have trouble with is break promises, loyalty, respect, honesty, but I do know that I am struggling with self-esteem, self-exploring, self-care, self-confidence. Especially my weight. When you look at me, you can imagine it---I was big woman from outside but with many damages inside me. You can imagine that I was OK, but really no I am not OK. 

From this Day 1 to a year later, I am going to share my journey with you by telling you my experiences, my thoughts, my love, and the important of all, self-exploring to discover who you are. 

My name is Samantha and I am happy at where I am right now and I am no longer "big". I am now "small" Soon, you will discover more about me...

Stay turned...

ID: Samantha sat on ATV with white sweater and skinny jeans with a few holes on it. Her hair was down and half was up in ponytail along with glasses and smiled. In the background, it was backyard with a huge of playground on the left and the house in the back. 

ID: Samantha smiled with hair down and curled along with bobby pins in the middle to poofy up along wtih eyeliner by the eyes and pink lipgloss along with grey sweater. In the background, it was in the room with window being bright behind Samantha's head. 

These pictures were old and it was few years ago back. If you want to know what I look like now, keep reading for next one! 

Hugs to all of you. 

Sammie